LaurelLee Loftsgard, Published September 25 2013
Impact the World: A little self-doubt can’t kill worthwhile, rewarding missionI’m very lucky and honored to be where I am today.
At just 23 years old, I have a full-time job, weekday entertainment show on InforumTV, a weekly column and so many opportunities that sometimes it blows my mind.
One of the most rewarding opportunities is working with the nonprofit, Diva Connection, an organization with the mission to connect women to empower each other and impact the world.
As the youngest volunteer, I sometimes feel the pressure to get everything done, do everything right and prove that I can run with the big guns.
I was so pumped last week to share the true meaning of the word “diva” in this column and to show people who we truly are and to move past their judgments.
But then life happened.
Over the weekend, Diva Connection’s mobile site was hacked.
While trying to figure out what had happened to the website I’d helped create, my thoughts also started to feel hacked.
My insecurities started flaring up. I started to question what people were going to think about me and what I’d written.
I wrote last week’s column because it’s a conversation many of us have had in the foundation. But I wanted to show people that I believe in its mission.
I believe in who we are and what we do.
So with everything that’s going on – all the new changes, opportunities and a couple of hackers – we discovered a doorway to expand our plan and our mission.
With our expanded mission comes a new website, new magazine, new opportunities and a new name. Diva Connection has become “Women’s Impact.”
We decided to take an unfortunate situation and turn it into a leap of faith to become more.
Did my insecurities flare up again because I just spent all last week convincing you we love our name? Uh, duh.
And you know what the worst part is? That one thing turned into a zillion other doubts.
I began second-guessing everything about myself. But we’re trying to do something better for our community. Why should I feel bad about that?
Take Mikey Hoeven’s responses to the questions in the Women’s Wisdom column, for example.
She’s beautiful, wise, talented and compassionate. And she even doubted herself.
That gives me hope that I can take my insecurities and turn them into something more.
Moral of the story: Don’t let those insecurities that are always in the back of your mind make up who you are.
You are so much more than what other people think or say. You are so much more than those insecurities.
Just like we are so much more than a hacker, a negative voice, a doubter.
We’re going to change the world, one insecurity at a time.
LaurelLee Loftsgard is a multimedia producer at The Forum and director
of operations of Women’s Impact. She writes her weekly “Impact the World” columns to inspire women to make a difference in themselves and those around them. Readers can reach her